YEARS of Considerations.. but on a small little thing

Fianlly the hair decision is made and is going to be done in a few hours.
No one looks forward to it. No one thinks is sth important.
My IA friends always joked that analytical ppl (me) is always too precise, not letting a single chance for any inaccuracy to slip off.
One can be very stubborn, looking at minute things or issues happening around us and make detailed analysis and comments, can be good or bad.. but most of the times it is just making one feels unhappy, stress and tired. So what's the point on insisting sth like this?
Just do not look down on them, who knows one day they can accumulate and burst out unknowingly.

LONG or short?

Today is gg to meet jt and go to the salon. As I looked through all my photos, I REALISE STH..
"MY HAIR IS SO BORING!!"

is long since poly? i would always remember that during my pri and sec sch days.. i was not allowed to keep long hair.. my parents always find that short hair is better for me until today, because i will definitely look neater, they always call me lion head coz i had too much hair and is thick. (gosh, y i feel sad when i hv too much hair when ppl out there r gg to hair treatment to save fr gg bald) I went all out to give a try in poly and until now is long..and though i did change the style of cutting as according to the stylist but still, i see no difference... I have decided to do treatment later, still stuggling whether to cut short or remains long...

I had a dream last night.. a weird dream.. or mayb was trying to tell me sth. here it goes.
It involved marie, mj and myself. I juz finished my trimming of hair, and we head towards a place, both of them sat down on a bench outide a salon shop. For dunno what reason, I was standing near the road side along the pathway.. I was playing and flipping my hair. When I joined the rest again, for all i know, i suddenly feel v "light", my hair was short! mj and marie asked me how come was short, to horror, when we looked back to the place i used to be standing, the rest of my hair was on the pavement. i can't remember after that..

seems silly but ya. how?? argh..

Updates

I just had my dinner, finally can have a seat.. haven't been sitting down since start of work.. should i say even before start of work. I have to reach office earlier than 8.30 to warm up my instrument.. though he never say anything but i do it so that i need not stay till 6 plus or even 7.. I had to start work immediately after lunch and not able to laze ard till one like my friends..I know this is another opportunity for me to learn more and run an ana lab, so i have to endure no matter what. This is working life... someday..
(Thanks to tm for the day of enlightment in msn.)
I have started work for more than 1 month, is more tiring than I expect it to be.

No doubt, I look forward to every weekend, to catch up with some slp at least. The tuition is driving me crazy. Can't the student concentrate on his exam, do properly all the sums and pay full attention to me, can't he listen to my words and remember once and for all, well at least till his PSLE is over. argh!

Last week was my happy week after so much work and all. :) Hmm.. ya u r right, time flies.. haha, old saying.. the word counting in your blog does scare me a bit, not because I am thinking again, juz that I am afraid life has to go on and i know that one day will come but I am not sure how I will react then, how I will handle it, sth which I am not wanting to. I am trying v hard now to accept thoughts that I dun like, trying and I hope time allows me to.

- - HUG - -
A simple squeeze...
A strong, tight one...warm, full of affection.
An embrace close to your strong chest makes me and my heart secured in you.

In love with it...
Its chance to come by is a gift from god.
Fill of guilt, but the greed in me never fails.
Its absence is too much to be endured.
It will always be a gift from my most loved one and I will always miss it till the chance comes by...

This is sth I wrote to give ya as a present for the anniversary. nothing great, nothing special, is something I have always wanting to say.

Marie and via have come back, jun will soon leave for 2 yrs, really have lots to catch up with my friends and bros!! HAVE to meet up. yup.

*** Till we meet***

Wishing for a dreamless nite

Is after exams and yet I am not sleeping well.. argh.
I hate dreams..

di da.. di da...

Shi jian de liu shi, hen wu qing..
Shi jian de liu shi, ling ren hen wu nai..
Shi jian de liu shi, zhen de hen ke pa...
ren hui sui zhe shi jian er gai bian.. gan qing ne? ye xu ye hui ba..
wo yi ge hen zhen xi de biao, zai wu yue shi er ri ting zhi le, mei dian le..
xin li tu ran yi pian hun luan, ru guo shi jian jiu yi zhi ting zhi zai na ge shi duan, yi qie bu jiu neng wei chi xia qu, kuai le de shi duan ye neng yong yuan gan shou de dao... zhe ke neng ma??
wo shi fou ying gai qu xiu ta, rang ta ji xu pei zai wo shen bian, rang ta pei zhe wo du guo mei yi tian?? wo shi fou yao mian dui xian shi, ji xu zhen xi ta?? qing gao shu wo... ...

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Cheers to Man Utd!!!!

hahaa.. man utd juz won!! Champion!! end of this season.. Soar all the way man!!

So excited and happy when giggs scored, nice and steady one! :)

SuRpRisESSSS

1. Before the arrival of CNY, I received a GReat CNY card all the way fr SHanghai!!!! is from via! oh mine, i was super touched, close to tears.. miss her lots.. and made me think of my 2bros (Mag and Marie) too. miss them all!!

2. 14/2 I mentioned I do not need any gifts, no need to waste $ juz because is a V day, anyday can receive gifts.. haha... but I still received it b4 12am, which is unexpected.. the gift itself is a surprise!

3. 21/2 I received a msg from ryan, (I checked my hp only after tuition) that he was on his way to pick me up.. I rubbed my tired eyes.. at this hour on a wk day after my tuition. never expected that he would come w/o informing, coz he is lazy and I also wouldn't want to tire him when the next day is a working day.. (A small surprise, mayb no big deal to all, but i was glad)

4. 22/2 TODAY JUZ NOW at 8.00 pm, my house phone rang, my sis picked up.. IS for me.. I wonder who is it coz not a familiar no..
"Hello..."
"Hello.. can hear me?"
"Helloo.. Hello.." I kept saying because I can't recognise who is on the line, has the urge to juz hang up, mayb is a prank call or wrong no mayb..
"Hello"
"Hello" "OHHHHHH!!!! ( I screamed v loudly) AHHH, MY gODnesss!!! is via!!"
"ya is me, no need to shout!"

Delighted from the call, V V surprised and is a pleasant one! so sweet of ya to call me, :)) Do take care, ur cough is bad, take some medicine if can.

yup... term break coming... will I get more pleasant surprises??!! haha..

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PS: I hope everything goes well for my dear friend, must fight for your love and sacrifice and tears, otherwise i will do sth ! .. Jia you!

mei you qi wang jiu mei you shi wang

The sentence just struck me.. from "Huan" yup it's very true, though i do not encourage rui to have this thought. :P

So what a girl will want in life.. IS IT

1. have lots of cash to go ard shopping?? (not unless you are a shopping queen)
2. a rich guy to get marry off and happily ever after? (that would b sad, no goals in the gal's life)
3. Plans her life with goals to meet, a fruitful and meaningful every day, dun think abt things that will not happen.. (juz like jia di)

When someone thought he/she will have high hopes and gd news, and the next moment he/she is struck with utter disappointment.. never blame him/her for being -ve, tt's just life, an unlucky life.

Beginning of the Race again

Monday is starting school.. :( starting sch = no sleep

Surprisingly today i can wake up early.. today may seem to rain or maybe it will not.. who knows.. things may never be the same again. Glad to read from your blog that you are doing fine and meet gd guys who are caring and can take care of one another. I'm sure this journey will let you learn a lot in terms of surviving and who knows u can cook for me when you come back.

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